Go Silent Like Stark Stars

She's going to be silent at some point.

You realize that, right?

You tell her you love her.

Tell her you need her.

Tell her that if there were a chance,

She'd be the weighing factor for your happiness;

That you both could be happy.

Together.

But you tell her that,

Give sweet words.

Memories.

Grab her around the waist when you meet--

Pulling her in, with a slow, gentle grace.

Everything is love.

In your touches.

Your movements.

Each other's sighs.

And then a switch it flipped,

Like on and off,

And she's forced back into your shadows.

She loves you, you know she always will.

She's said it,

But what more,

She's proved it.

You can't keep a woman like that hidden though.

You can't choose other lives without her being pivotal--

Not without her straightening her spine,

Smiling. Loving from inside.

Telling herself that she's fine being friends,

Even though it's the most complicated aspect of her own life,

And always will be.

She's going to find someone else, somehow, some place--

To be the second dawning, to give her a slice of happiness

That she is most deserving.

She will talk, but you may have to pull it out of her.

Where once she wished she could tell you everything,

Share every moment, she will bite her tongue.

You pushed this. You didn't understand that playing games was bad.

She was more worth to you than you could ever find,

And she deserved more than you,

But her heart was only yours.

Now. Now it's time for someone to steal a piece of that big heart.

She doesn't know where.

Doesn't know when.

Doesn't know who.

But she's willing to try.

She's hoping on stars in the sky.

Naked Soul

I have never felt so bare.

Not to another, not even to my mirror.

Everything is stripped away, my bones, my skin;

All my flaws, my traits, my shine--

Are on the top of the surface like sea foam

As you wade through it, see me from inside.

You pass easily through, and I'm nervous as hell.

I've been with many, naked flesh I'm confident with, no sweat.

You make me nervous though, more than any other has--

My knees quake a little, that I'm glad you've lain me down.

You're so sweet and kind, while I laugh from my heart.

I never thought of feelings being like this,

And it makes me feel more scared perhaps than I ever have been before.

You pinky-promise me, staring into my eyes--

Past all the layers, to my very soul, and part of me

Never wants to let you go.

In All Ways

**Actually wrote this back in November, during a class, and just discovered my notebook **

A dream is a wish your heart makes, supposedly.

If this is true, I’d give up everything—

If I could always have, me and you.

Take my hand, don’t let go.

I’m tired of standing on my own.

I’d have all I’ve ever wanted

If I’d never have to say goodbye.

Je t’adore, te amo

In all ways, I love you

We take the beauty and the flaws

Our hearts are at the center of love’s laws.

Let Love Go

If I let love go,

Let it fall from my heart

Will I still be me?

Will I still be standing?

It’s always been,

What holds me up.

It’s my strength and my weakness

My walls and my doors.

So kiss me and leave,

It’s what you’re good at.

Kiss me and leave--

Will I keep the love in?

I want to let it fall

Let it fall from my heart.

But I can’t let go

Either you got me good or you got me wrong.

True loves they can come and go

But the ones that touch your soul

It seems like they just grow.

You came in, seven years ago

I tell my heart to be silent

But with kindness or sadness

I can’t seem to let the love go,

It consumes me whole.

Why I Let It All Go

Three shots of tequila, I’m growin’ weak

Memory comes in, like the tide of a sea.

Come on baby, don’t you know

Don’t you know what it is that you’re doin’ to me?

The heartache of a kiss is like a dagger to me.

Another drink in, my tongue loosens

The warmth of the liquor spreads through my skin.

Come on baby, do you even remember

Do you even remember when I let it all go?

You’re why I let it all go.

Chorus:

When you find the one you want to be with

When you find the one that you need

It’s easy for the rest of the world to slip away.

You’re why I let it all go.

And the heartache of a kiss is like a dagger to me.

I’m getting pretty tipsy, fuzzy thoughts consuming

This isn’t me, I just want to drink you down the drain.

Come on baby, don’t you know

Don’t you know what it is that you’re doin’ to me?

The heartache of a kiss is like a dagger to me.

Pay the bartender, he looks me up and down

A wave and a glance, I walk on out.

Come on baby, do you even remember

Do you even remember when I let it all go?

You’re why I let it all go.

Chorus

The memory of your kiss is what’s making my heart bleed.

I'd Go Back

I close my eyes,

And you’ve returned

No longer using life as a disguise.

I’ve missed you during all this time,

And letting you into my mind

Is foolish, but worth it.

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You broke my heart

And I’ve worked hard to bury your memory.

Your love, wasn’t worth my love.

But for one moment,

I’ll dream of going back—

Just to be completely happy again.

I’m forgetting what it was like

To be held in your arms

And the smell of your skin.

Do you remember how we

Used to fit like puzzle pieces,

Out limbs locking into place, sticking like glue?

Chorus

I’ll take the hurt and the pain,

If that means I can go back in time,

Relive our reverie.

The old you was not a knight in shining armor,

But the kind of devil that could

Lure me in with just one breath.

Chorus

For one moment,

I’d go back.

Won't Go Back

Last year, I probably would’ve said yes.

Take you back even if it couldn’t work.

Deal out multiple second chances.

So I could always hold onto you.

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But now, you wouldn’t know me

I’m no longer the same

And I’m not going back to who I was,

And even though a piece of me

Still loves you like an everlasting flame,

I won’t go back, no I ain’t going back.

Press rewind and take in all the memories,

Nostalgia’s a bitch, don’t I know it.

Hear people talking about hurt and pain,

And all of them think staying and returning is going to be worth it.

Chorus

Don’t come crawling to me,

I won’t care if you bring me flowers, begging on your knees.

You may think my heart’s grown cold,

Truth is, I just did what I had to, became stronger.

Chorus

I won’t go back to me and you.

Come Back to Me

Someday, we will find each other again

I guess for now, it’s time to part

My heart cries, it’s hard to say goodbye

But I try to keep in mind, it’s not forever.

Chorus:

Clocks are gonna turn.

Lovers are gonna come and go.

My heart for you will continue to burn.

All I gotta do is wait,

Wait until you come back to me.

Come back to me.

I sat by the phone waiting

Thought you would call or text me.

You had told me all of your love you had,

We we’re going to be finally happy.

Chorus

And then three weeks went by,

I never heard a single word, and I cried--

Cried myself to sleep every night.

My heart battled with my mind.

Chorus

So I guess it’s time to move on,

Find another man to hold me close

Lie to myself until I believe myself,

I’ll go on lonely dating and breaking hearts.

Chorus

Come back to me.