Mon coeur sera toujours

Leave my dreams

The same as you've done in life,

Because it breaks my heart more every time

My eyes flutter open

Before I lock the doors I've built

In these waking hours for these walls,

To shut this...to shut you, out.

Why must my heart still love you in my subconscious?

You're a ghost,

Hidden in my soul.

Even in two languages, or any way I would think to express it

The ache is not conveyed enough,

But for the world, to you, I will never again breathe it.

This remains my morning sighs.

Laisser mes rêves

le même comme tu l'as fait dans la vie,

parce que cela me brise le coeur plus chaque fois

mes yeux flutter ouvrir

avant je verrouiller les portes j'ai construit

en ces heures que je me réveille,

d'arrêter cette...à toi arrêter.

Pourquoi mon coeur aime toujours tu dans mon subconscient?

Tu est un ghost,

caché dans mon âme.

Même dans les deux langues, ou de toute façon j'aurais penser pour exprimer-ce

la douleur n'est pas assez véhiculée,

mais pour le monde, à tu, que je ne serai jamais plus respirer.

Ce reste mon matin soupirs.

Never Mine

All of these years,

I had the distinct feeling

That each lover of yours

            That filled temporary homes in your heart,

Never knew.

They never knew about me,

Our history--past,

Stolen kisses when we were no one elses'.

They didn't know about our friendship,

The close ties, the way we knew one another,

As we got older.

They knew none of that.

I am sure as well, that aside from those shared or met,

None of your other friends really knew either.

What were you scared of?

Was it a lie that you didn't care about what others thought?

The only conclusion I can claim is that perhaps

Our connection, the love, the camaraderie--

It would ruin your street cred.

Foolish man, we're no longer teenagers.

I was your secret.

You were never mine.

Naked Soul

I have never felt so bare.

Not to another, not even to my mirror.

Everything is stripped away, my bones, my skin;

All my flaws, my traits, my shine--

Are on the top of the surface like sea foam

As you wade through it, see me from inside.

You pass easily through, and I'm nervous as hell.

I've been with many, naked flesh I'm confident with, no sweat.

You make me nervous though, more than any other has--

My knees quake a little, that I'm glad you've lain me down.

You're so sweet and kind, while I laugh from my heart.

I never thought of feelings being like this,

And it makes me feel more scared perhaps than I ever have been before.

You pinky-promise me, staring into my eyes--

Past all the layers, to my very soul, and part of me

Never wants to let you go.

In All Ways

**Actually wrote this back in November, during a class, and just discovered my notebook **

A dream is a wish your heart makes, supposedly.

If this is true, I’d give up everything—

If I could always have, me and you.

Take my hand, don’t let go.

I’m tired of standing on my own.

I’d have all I’ve ever wanted

If I’d never have to say goodbye.

Je t’adore, te amo

In all ways, I love you

We take the beauty and the flaws

Our hearts are at the center of love’s laws.

If You Will

You said that you're here now,

But you're proving my need

To not hope

Because I never know for how long.

Don't profess your love

And speak the sweet words

Of misery

And longing

When at the drop of a pin

You could disappear for what seems a century.

Stay awhile, if you will.

Hold my hand,

Pull me close,

Never let go like you did before.

Pull the hood down that you hide within,

Reveal the character that strikes at my heart...

The one which drives me to the balance of insanity and sane.

Forever Crazy

I hear your name,

Someone says it and it acts like lightning,

Striking and sending an electric current,

A power surge of emotions and memories through me.

And I’m running without an end.

Chorus:

When it comes to you,

Even though you’re a presence,

I wish to keep in the past,

I become an utter mess,

Go a little insane,

Always, forever crazy.

Gave you my heart, gave you my love

You became the foundation of every wish and dream.

You never tried hard but got in my head,

Now your memory is the haunting phantom

That I’ll never escape.

Chorus

I’m trying to move on, maybe replace you

I know I need no one, I’m independent.

But then somehow, you come back in my mind

And I become weak, thinking that I need you again.

I’ve got pride, and my heart won’t break me.

The past is where you are to stay,

To always drive me, forever crazy.

Have You

Do you remember me?

I sure remember you.

I remember those eyes,

I remember that face,

I remember those hands

That held onto me so tight.

My heart and soul aches

As I remember how we once loved,

Will you come back into my life,

Carry me from the ashes like

A tainted savior raising me from the grave

In which I buried my heart.

Chorus:

In the dark we hide, our denial

That we ever loved at all

Inside I’m crying

Because I know I’ll never have you

Like I did once before.

But maybe we can have another chance,

I pray that chances are something

That can be granted more than once.

Is there still a piece of me inside of you

That you still hold onto just like your arms

Once held me close to your chest?

Come back into my life and stay there

Be the soul mate I once believed you were.

I’ll bite the forbidden fruit

If that will mean that I can have you

No need for seduction

All we need is the truth.

Chorus

Unfortunately for me,

I don’t believe that you will give me what I need

The redemption, the peace

Because you were always stuck in your ways

A crazy mustang that no woman could tame for long,

But I’m on my bended knees hoping.

I’m hoping that you’ve changed

But that the person I once adored

Is still there inside, too.

Can you reach out to me?

Let your heart remember the love we shared,

You’re existence keeps this hope alive.

Chorus

Like I did once before.

Never Alone

Little girl are you feeling blue?

Feel upset, like you can’t make it through?

As if you can’t see the rainbow that stretches

Across a clear sky after the rain comes down?

Chorus:

I want you to know,

You’re not alone,

You’re never alone my friend,

I’ll be here for you,

Whether you want me to;

You’re never alone.

Teenage invisible freak,

Are you feeling like you’ll never be seen?

As if all there is to life is prom queens

And maybe you should be a wannabe?

Chorus

Welcome to the real world,

You’re out on your own and you feel so cold

As if you won’t be able to face reality

As it bares down like a heavy weight?

Chorus

No, you’re never alone.