Never Mine

All of these years,

I had the distinct feeling

That each lover of yours

            That filled temporary homes in your heart,

Never knew.

They never knew about me,

Our history--past,

Stolen kisses when we were no one elses'.

They didn't know about our friendship,

The close ties, the way we knew one another,

As we got older.

They knew none of that.

I am sure as well, that aside from those shared or met,

None of your other friends really knew either.

What were you scared of?

Was it a lie that you didn't care about what others thought?

The only conclusion I can claim is that perhaps

Our connection, the love, the camaraderie--

It would ruin your street cred.

Foolish man, we're no longer teenagers.

I was your secret.

You were never mine.

Just Like Love

There’s a heart slowly beating

In this chest of mine.

It’s waiting for you to come

Tell me the truth,

Tell me how you really feel.

Chorus:

Do you know the drumming of war?

It’s fast, scary, and absolutely terrifying.

Then again, you get moments,

You can feel like you’re flying—

It’s an adrenaline rush.

Just like love.

I can still remember,

When our eyes first met.

Something stirred inside me

I swear it was kismet;

Pretty sure my soul was ready to speak.

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Isn’t it funny how

All of these little things

They stick in your head and won’t get out.

The trueness of the situation

Is that, I don’t wanna live without you.

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So I keep, I keep holding on.

I try to run free,

But you, you’ve got me good and strong.

I’d give up everything

If it meant, one last night

In your arms, by your side.

Previous State

I once was a romantic,

I was a fighter for love.

When I cared, I expanded my soul—

The casualty was my heart.

I waited, benched on the sidelines

For when contentment would increase—

Happiness achieved.

I wanted the amount of sacrifice,

The times I stepped aside,

To decrease.

Someone who felt so much,

And waited with a wary eye,

You’d think would deserve a special someone

The kind called “mine.”

Approach me, we’d do the dance.

I like you.

Hands held.

A kiss.

Foundation built, true friendship

What should equal reality’s form of bliss.

Another chunk of the beating organ,

Stolen from beneath my ribs instead.

Never again whole, cannot return

To previous innocence.

What it Wants

You’re not mine,

I can’t state a claim.

If someone wants you

I’ll have to sit on the sidelines.

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Here’s the truth of the tale,

The heart wants what it wants,

Emotions and attractions

Open my eyes.

I like it when you come to me,

Your touch makes me feel alive—

You send an electric current

And I give in.

Chorus

I won’t make you choose

It’s not right to say it’s me or the other,

I just ask that there’s honesty,

Embrace what you’re given.

Chorus

Take what you want,

I’ll keep your secrets.