Silent Wonders Wander

Am I carrying you, my secrets and shadows?

Are you finally starting to exist in a larger matter,

That isn't just at home in my mind, a figment of dreams?

Are you solid, the type of creation that when you're grown,

I can hold you in my hands, rock you in my arms?

Only one can be your other maker, my partner in sin--

The one I always wanted, saw at the end of the fantastical aisle.

Are you here? Are you real?

I'm scared but you're who I've always wanted.

I wait and tense, sick with fear and ill with anticipation.

But two lines don't appear, blood is negative.

Part of me is relieved, I don't want you to be in this world just yet.

Part of me is dying once again, because you would've been my biggest dream come true.

Hope that runs on the thin edge of a mental wall, crumbled and high.

I fall, I climb.

I Wish I Could Say

There's so much that goes unsaid. Years and minutes, truths untold.
Said with the eyes, and thumbs that graze buttons but never type.
Hearts that ache, lips that sigh. Secrets held tight within the soul.
Hands clenched tight, bated breaths which linger.
My tongue halts behind the gates of closed teeth,
Wishing for the wants and truths to be seen.
Instead, I move forward, feelings behind closed screens.

What it Wants

You’re not mine,

I can’t state a claim.

If someone wants you

I’ll have to sit on the sidelines.

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Here’s the truth of the tale,

The heart wants what it wants,

Emotions and attractions

Open my eyes.

I like it when you come to me,

Your touch makes me feel alive—

You send an electric current

And I give in.

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I won’t make you choose

It’s not right to say it’s me or the other,

I just ask that there’s honesty,

Embrace what you’re given.

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Take what you want,

I’ll keep your secrets.

Friday Nights

It was homecoming weekend

You came for a visit

It was my freshmen year of college

And you kept your promise, from long ago

And kissed me for our first time…

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And Friday nights were our special nights—

When we’d share our secrets

Open our hearts and the walls fell down

And you took me away just by being…

It was two in the morning,

My friends and I were driving the back roads

To Pennsylvania and back;

And you took me in to spend some time

And held me all through ‘til the next day…

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It was hot in the beginning of August,

You picked me up and we went to your place

You told me you loved me

And I loved you back;

And that night I gave you the rest of my innocence…

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On Friday nights.