Silent Wonders Wander

Am I carrying you, my secrets and shadows?

Are you finally starting to exist in a larger matter,

That isn't just at home in my mind, a figment of dreams?

Are you solid, the type of creation that when you're grown,

I can hold you in my hands, rock you in my arms?

Only one can be your other maker, my partner in sin--

The one I always wanted, saw at the end of the fantastical aisle.

Are you here? Are you real?

I'm scared but you're who I've always wanted.

I wait and tense, sick with fear and ill with anticipation.

But two lines don't appear, blood is negative.

Part of me is relieved, I don't want you to be in this world just yet.

Part of me is dying once again, because you would've been my biggest dream come true.

Hope that runs on the thin edge of a mental wall, crumbled and high.

I fall, I climb.

Again

I said I wouldn’t

But I did.

That hope I tried

To refuse,

It flooded in.

And now here I am,

Here I stand

Scared and still

That you will

Break my heart again.

Never Alone

Little girl are you feeling blue?

Feel upset, like you can’t make it through?

As if you can’t see the rainbow that stretches

Across a clear sky after the rain comes down?

Chorus:

I want you to know,

You’re not alone,

You’re never alone my friend,

I’ll be here for you,

Whether you want me to;

You’re never alone.

Teenage invisible freak,

Are you feeling like you’ll never be seen?

As if all there is to life is prom queens

And maybe you should be a wannabe?

Chorus

Welcome to the real world,

You’re out on your own and you feel so cold

As if you won’t be able to face reality

As it bares down like a heavy weight?

Chorus

No, you’re never alone.

Pretend That You're Dead

This hurts,

This is painful.

Hell is finally freezing over,

And I’m doing something that I never thought

I would do.

Chorus:

Because this is the time

That I finally have to say goodbye,

And the only way that I can deal with this grief

Is to pretend that you’re dead;

Pretend that you’re dead in my world

And that I’ll never get to see you again,

Never hear your voice again.

Because you decided to cut the ties,

After all these years,

I guess the past five have all been lies—

So I’m going to shed a few last tears

It’s time to move on,

You’re no longer here.

Chorus

Maybe you met somebody new,

But I’m done second guessing

Everything that you’ve said and done—

Just going to cherish all the memories

Reminisce knowing that it wasn’t my fault,

Remember the man I loved who wasn’t

Leaving me in the dust, alone.

Chorus

Pretend that you’re dead

Because I’m done and you’re oh so gone.

You’re out of my life.

Chorus

Oh no, I’m just going to pretend that you’re dead.