You were the first person, since the person I loved,
Who I deigned to let hold me, where it actually felt
right.
Where I was comfortable
And somewhat peaceful.
It wasn’t my perfect,
My fairytale,
But it was right.
I don’t regret it.
In fact, I sort of miss it,
And I miss you.
You are also the only other guy
I fell asleep next to,
Let alone in the arms of,
Besides the one my heart’s
with,
That I could fall asleep with so quickly—easily—
And slip away.
It hurts that you’re not around.
The silence,
The lack of laughter,
The music and eyes meeting.
You were a friend,
I still want you as a friend.
I thought I saw a beautiful soul, thirsty to grow.
Don’t stop growing,
But try to grow towards the sun,
Not the shadows.
You don’t belong in the shadows.
The shadows are where others like I, belong.
You may have been mean,
You may have done me wrong,
But I know I was doing wrong as well.
Trying to open the love sector of my heart,
To give you a chance outside of
friendship,
Outside of attraction,
But my heart won’t turn off the love for the other.
Telling you I felt for you was wrong.
That was our mistake. Choking on the water.
I miss you, so yes, don’t stop the talk.
I know from my past, it won’t be the same,
But you are beautiful inside,
Don’t let anyone tell you different.
Don’t tell yourself different.
I never lied about what I saw,
So grow,
Open your leaves.
Offer another peace.
Offer yourself peace.
