Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Thank You

You said, you wanted me to be myself.
You said, you loved everything about me.
But your actions were knives to it all--

And I was left, struggling with my emotions.
You led me to think that I was going mad,
But you making me cry is what made it all go bad.

Chorus:
I have no regrets,
Those tears will make me stronger.
You mad me learn, what I didn't know yet,
And made me remember--
That I'm not dead.

So thank you, thank you
For showing me I can still open my heart.
Thank you, thank you
For showing me that the ice is gone.

I needed this, no matter how short it was.
I hope you can forgive me someday.
We weren't right for each other,
I had to end it all to save one another.

Chorus

Kisses and wishes,
we were two twenty-somethings,
Needing saving and redeeming from our pasts.

I couldn't handle it,
I was ready but the intensity was too much.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart.

Chorus

So thank you, thank you
You made me feel my heart beat again

Chorus

Lonely Lover

You can fall, you can run
But love's gonna find you
You can put up a fight, not believe anyone
But love's gonna find you...

Chorus:
When it's right, you'll know
When it's real, it's gonna show
There will be, a lot of crumbled roses
There will be, seas filled with tears
You've got to have faith, because heaven's watching out for you
Don't give up, don't lose hope
Because when it's right, you'll surely know.

You may lose yourself along the way,
You just have to pick up the pieces,
It'll be a brighter day.

Bridge:
Hold on to your hear, lonely lover
Don't be afraid, to give it to another
Just recognize, what you really need
Don't sell out, you'll find your peace, eventually.

Chorus

Bridge

Hold on to your heart, lonely lover
Hold on to your heart--
Hold on to your heart, lonely lover.

Breaking Another

I jumped in too deep,
I gave my heart too quick.
This isn't me, and my soul's a little sick.
My gut's in knots, I'm a little suffocated,
And in order to breathe, I know I'll have to do
What's against what I want,
In order to receive, what I need.
Breathe. Air. Self. Me.
I must break another,
To save what I've worked hard to gain:
My sanity--
My identity.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

First Week

I jumped into this, headlong, fast
Saying to take it slow but the emotions move quick
I've never been the kind of girl to fall with speed
But I've never had a guy make me cry because he loved me.

I want to make things work,
I'm in love for the second time and it somewhat hurts
My world's upside down, spinning like a top
And there's so many times my stomach's already in knots.

I'm scared and yet I'm staying, but there's already stupid fighting
I'm rooting my feet in but I already feel as if I can't do anything right
I'm told not to blame myself, but it's hard when the one
Is telling you that he's going to try hard not to think bad thoughts about you.

There may be bad from the past for both sides,
But at least I'm not letting it make me want to hide.
The worst part is, I feel the happiest I have in ages,
And yet I want to burn my skin because of the pains and sadness, too.

It's already a push and shove, trying to hold on to who I am
I don't want to lose me, my self, and I'm told to stay true to my heart
But my mind is influenced by my emotions and all I feel is as if I'm about to drown
With him as the raft keeping me from submersion.