Tuesday, December 23, 2014

I Want You to Know

I want you to know
I have no regrets
No regrets for ever loving you
I gave you my heart
And you held my soul
You were my true, true one
And a piece of me
Will never let you go
But I've finally realized
That while you will always be a part of me
Of my life...
It's time to never look back
At least not for me
I'll support you, hell, I'll raise a glass
For anything that will make you smile
You aren't mine though
You were never going to let that happen
And I'm happier without having you in my veins anymore
We're part of a messed up extended family
Hearts to hearts
And yet, I'm good
And damn I feel good not dwelling on my love for you
The pain and the sadness
The hurt and disappointment
I've shed it like skin
And risen
Whatever happens, come what may
I'm excited, because I can't see it
And I wouldn't be here
Wouldn't be who I am today
If I had never loved you
The way we loved.

Want to Try

I fall into pieces
And I keep hoping
That you'll look my way.
I stumble, this isn't what I'm used to--
I loved for so long, hid away.

I crash and I bury
I cry but I can't let it be seen.
It's time for me to open now that it's all closed, behind me.

Rearrange, these atoms that form my skin
At night when I close my eyes,
It's all darkness with blasts of light.

I want to try you out,
See if we're a fit and I just want to try,
This isn't me but I like you too much to not try.

I've been on this wheel called life for too long
Been carrying my burdens, sharing them with no one.
I want to be loved, not just the lover--
I want to see the world, see it in your eyes
I've fallen in pieces, but for the future I'm willing--

I'm willing to bring all the skies, and wrap them around me tight.