I'm blocking, hiding
Burying feelings deep inside chests with locks and keys
But my mind screams, you must confront!
Take and unlock--
Be undone.
You need to breathe, even if it's through tears.
It's keeping you from sleep
And you, you're killing part of your soul to move forward.
Can't you confront that there is no more forward,
Just what is, allow it to grow.
I can't though I want to scream,
My subconscious rattling the bars and ribs,
I cannot, for I will drown!
Why must you haunt me?
I'm trying to live,
I'm attempting to appear free,
You know I fear a cage, even though I must conceal part of
myself,
Wrapped in chains around my invisible ankles,
To keep me from running to the one that holds me--
Alas, how I wish I were held,
But when I am, I toss and turn.
I don't wish to speak
Because if I do, if I let out all that I've suffocated in my
heart,
Then I open myself up, to being hurt one last time--
One last time, because once that jar of dreams is open
again,
I don't see myself rising from the ashes once more.
