No, It's Not

Isn’t it funny how

Just one simple action

Can put enough power into a threat

That is made countless times

From child to adult,

It still keeps you down.

You want to fight it,

But just a smack of words,

Your mind reverts,

Fear sits there like the monster under the bed

Lurking and waiting—

It makes you quiet.

You shut your mouth,

Silence.

The Other Fish Within The Sea

Please don’t call me sweetheart,

I might vomit from the fear.

Please don’t fall so easily,

I may break your heart before you have the chance.

Please don’t call me yours,

My heart is someone else’s.

Please don’t speak of settling,

It’s hard for me to see a future without him.

I cannot stay, so I move on.

Part of me still listens though,

For when my love comes to my door.

I can give you friendship,

I can bring you ease…

You are stress relief,

The other fish within the sea.

I want to step away

Give you the simple yes you seek,

But I cannot, because while I can mix and mingle

My heart still waits to hear its heartsong sing.

I hate to admit, but I’ve that hope inside,

That kind whose seed buries deep.

Yes, I like you

That goes without saying.

Do I foresee a future?

Don’t hate me for not believing.

I have one in mind

That I thought was broken long ago

But once again,

Lightning struck and the dreams came creeping back.

I want to say yes,

Trust me, I do.

However, I don’t know what kind of answer to give

When I could have all I ever wanted

With the one that compliments, completes

If I just hang on a little longer.

Could you wait? That’s cruel of me to ask.

You’re kind and sweet

But I don’t know, if even though you think me cute

If you could ever handle the real me

That is beneath.

Breathe In

Breathe in,

Breathe out.

Let in,

I drown.

I want that love.

I survive without it.

The kiss at night

Within the silence.

Brush your hand

Against this soul

Do you feel

The cracks so old?

Remove the words

The unsaid and spoken.

Listen to the heartbeat

Please, take action.

Thump.

Flutter.

Still.

Together.

Slip Away

That’s it.

I’m done.

Us?

You’re gone.

I don’t believe the three words:

I love you.

Let’s not.

Gave you chances,

Let my feelings show,

Yeah, I was wrong

Once more.

Like the devil

You pulled me

Time

And again.

Seasons change

Just like them,

You come and go.

Give me words

And kindness…

I don’t know the truth

Of if you’re here or there.

You don’t know how to stay.

Stay? Is that a reality?

Nay.

I’ll believe it when you act.

Come in and remain,

Or else…I’ll slip away.

If You Will

You said that you're here now,

But you're proving my need

To not hope

Because I never know for how long.

Don't profess your love

And speak the sweet words

Of misery

And longing

When at the drop of a pin

You could disappear for what seems a century.

Stay awhile, if you will.

Hold my hand,

Pull me close,

Never let go like you did before.

Pull the hood down that you hide within,

Reveal the character that strikes at my heart...

The one which drives me to the balance of insanity and sane.