Breaking Another

I jumped in too deep,

I gave my heart too quick.

This isn't me, and my soul's a little sick.

My gut's in knots, I'm a little suffocated,

And in order to breathe, I know I'll have to do

What's against what I want,

In order to receive, what I need.

Breathe. Air. Self. Me.

I must break another,

To save what I've worked hard to gain:

My sanity--

My identity.

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel

As if everything, inside of me, is breaking.

How can I hold on,

Without a hand to cling to,

The one who was my shelter

Is still so far gone.

Sometimes I think back

To who I was back then and now,

How can I go back

Without the love to greet me,

When all lights go out

And I’m still alone.

Sometimes I want to

Reverse time and revert back

Have all the memories rewind and

Let me return to

When I was cared for and

I believed you’d never leave.

Sometimes I wonder

Will the old me resurface

But then I know the truth

It won’t happen because of you.

So I guess I’ll go on

And just dream of you.