Kept it Inside

You came in and my heart stopped.

I asked the bartender to pour me another shot.

You knew I was there,

You couldn’t stop looking.

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I wanted to scream.

I wanted to rage.

I wanted to cry.

Biting my tongue,

Holding my breath.

I kept it inside.

It was a knife to my chest the moment you kissed her.

A stranger that I didn’t know.

You keep sayin’ that you love me.

But your actions are tellin’ a different story.

Chorus

Don’t keep playing with me.

I’m gonna be pulling away.

You might have thought that I’d always stay,

But I stopped waiting on you.

Chorus

I’m gone.

I’m going.

You broke us

With a married woman.

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Biting my tongue,

Holding my breath.

Biting my tongue,

Holding my breath.

I kept it inside.

Dissonance

Sometimes I wonder

If perhaps my heart

Would have a better chance

In another world,

Or over across the ocean.

So many days,

I feel that pull

But I’m never sure if the place

That holds my love

Feels the draw that

Begs to be allowed to consume

The soul.

Maybe if I were to put distance—

A great divide,

The heart would stand a chance

For love without looking back.

Sure, communication

And memories, they wouldn’t have to cease

But like the beats of drum

The thrum would have more dissonance

Due to the branching of space,

Separating.

It’d alter the sounds,

Perhaps some silence.

Is there a chance?

Will the heart get such of one?

I don’t foresee it.

I’ll always end up losing,

He’ll always be the soul that won.