Bruised Knees

I am on my knees

Not because of glory

Reach out your hand,

Help me up.

I’ve been broken but am determined to rise.

            I may not have been bled with red,

But tears have spilled on my face and smeared across

My love's chest as he's held me shaking

            And each porcelain piece of me

Spider-cracked

            And

He

            Just

Gripped me in his arms tighter to act as the glue

That allows me to go further...

The one you blessed me with even though

Soap opera, midnight drama

            Has multiplied by ten-fold in my life

Since you placed him in my life to finally be recognized

And to un-melt my heart and fill past-pains,

            Assist me in re-finding myself,

Allowing me to love again.

You have given him,

But I've been knocked down so many times,

            And only just gotten up,

A little harder each blending chapter--

That I for once, to the best of my memory,

            Have doubted and questioned You;

My faith. The road ahead.

Roads have been dark,

            But Heaven

I have often wondered if the stars,

            They still move.

Devil's Brother

You're the devil's brother,

No god can grant you serenity

And silent dreams that don't wrack your sleep.

Your words have become banal,

Your touch familiar yet stale.

I yearn for you, a devil's worshiper--

Midnight's prayer.

Love Myself

I’ve got these scars,

They’re on the inside and outside.

I’ve cried over each path I’ve taken

But I know these maps won’t define me.

Chorus:

I’m learning to love myself

Praying God will lead me on

Hold me tightly, for each time I fall—

I will love myself.

I defied my family

Inked my skin and got a piercing;

I will go against traditions,

Fly out of this cocoon I am in.

Chorus

Chorus

You see a person in front of you,

Broken, cracked, bleeding and bruised.

You think that you know me,

But I’m telling you not to judge me.

Chorus

You don’t think that I can be free

Be myself, the one that’s not seen

You don’t listen to me

It’s time to hear me.

Chorus

I will love—

I will love myself.