Just Want You Back

I took the pictures you drew me off the wall,

Threw the bracelet you gave me in a box in my armoire,

I don’t want to see the things I have of you,

Just want you back, yeah, just want you back.

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Everyone’s telling me it gets better as time passes

But I’m not sure whether to believe them;

I feel like there’s a hole swallowing what little’s left of me,

Can you just pick up the pieces and love me again?

How can I miss you when you were so mean?

I had to tear down anything that made me think of you

The memories that we both made.

Just want you back, yeah, just want you back.

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Inside there's only heartache and pain
A big empty space where I’m like damn, this hurts

It hurts and I can’t fill it no matter how hard I try.

Just want you back, yeah, just want you back.

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You’re driving me crazy because I’m not over you,

You hurt me, you tore me apart

Like a paper doll that you created, you shredded my heart.

Just want you back, yeah, just want you back.

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I just want you back, even if you destroyed me.

I just want you back, even though it’ll set me up for more heartache.

I just want you back, because you still own my heart.

Just want you back, yeah, just want you back.

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Pick up the pieces and love me again.

Love Myself

I’ve got these scars,

They’re on the inside and outside.

I’ve cried over each path I’ve taken

But I know these maps won’t define me.

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I’m learning to love myself

Praying God will lead me on

Hold me tightly, for each time I fall—

I will love myself.

I defied my family

Inked my skin and got a piercing;

I will go against traditions,

Fly out of this cocoon I am in.

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You see a person in front of you,

Broken, cracked, bleeding and bruised.

You think that you know me,

But I’m telling you not to judge me.

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You don’t think that I can be free

Be myself, the one that’s not seen

You don’t listen to me

It’s time to hear me.

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I will love—

I will love myself.

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Anymore

Don’t turn away,

Don’t walk away

Come here and face me.

Time we laid all the chips and cards down

It’s time we talked,

And it wont be easy.

Bridge:

Sticks and stones may break my bones,

But your words no longer hurt me;

No, you can’t hurt me anymore.

You took my heart,

You made and broke me,

You were my happy place,

Come here and tell me how

I can replace all of what you’ve done

And what you did to crack me.

Bridge

Because I am stronger,

Did you think that I’d let myself

Love you forever and ever?

You’re wrong, I’m not your slave

Honey, you’ve misplayed the game

And now you’re left all alone.

Sticks and stones may break my bones,

But your words no longer hurt me anymore.

Goodbye Dreams

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Hello darling,

It’s been a long time coming,

I have to say goodbye,

To every dream I’ve had

To our happy ending.

If I had your baby

She’d have emerald eyes

And auburn hair;

She’d be the little witch

Claiming every man’s heart

Once she turned sixteen.

She’d have out love wrapped round her heart,

Before she was even three.

She’s the baby I’ve dreamt of

Since I was fifteen—

But now she’s wrentched from me,

These childless arms will never get to hold her.

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I’m not going to have the small wedding anymore

Little church in the middle of no where

White with no cross decorating the rooftop,

Just a choir of angels singing from heaven above,

As the hundered or so people would come in,

To sit on my side or yours.

And as I would walk down the aisle,

I’d only want simple vases of flowers sitting in the windows,

Our eyes would lock

And you’d be all in black, no tie or bow;

We’d be saying out vows

And be a family forever.

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It’s been a long time coming,

I have to say goodbye,

To every dream I’ve had

To our happy ending.

Casanovas

One male came in the door,

Swept me off my feet

With art on his arm like a sleeve,

Mr. Mystery come on in,

We’ll do the side step,

Take me on the rollercoaster.

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They’re cowboy Casanovas,

Riding in to steal your heart

From beneath your wide eyes,

Pretty little ones,

They’ll tell you lies

And you’ll do anything for them.

They’re just playing games,

Call them Mr. ‘Nova.

One male came in the door

Seized my feelings

Like another rock star.

Come on in mister

Have a drink on me,

Bartender pour him another whiskey.

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One male came in the door

Took me by surprise

And brought the breath right out of my lungs

As if I was a puppet,

Put me on strings

Speak my lines for me baby.

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Casonovas

Pretender

He was my friend

Blond hair, baby blues;

He was like a brother

Until one day my heart changed,

And it skipped a beat.

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And then we had one night

Where we had a little fun,

In the front of his Chevy truck;

And I was so excited,

But he crushed my hopes right after.

What a pretender,

That boy didn’t know what he wanted;

Such a pretender.

Took me to a bonfire,

Almost carried me to be near the flames;

I couldn’t walk,

My feet were quarter-sized blisters,

Thought that he would never change.

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Now he only calls

When he needs some help

I’m the only one who will listen

To his drunken wreckage,

Some man he turned out to be.

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What a pretender,

Such a pretender.

Leaving Me

Have I ever told you

That leaving me would do more harm

Than just hurt me?

It would scare me.

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I weep and I struggle,

I forget my power.

This is gonna make me stronger,

I know this in my head;

But I want to hold onto you,

Just a little bit longer.

You’re walking away

And I shake in a shell of anger;

You’re blaming me

With words I would’ve said.

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You scream at me

Tell me that I’m the one that made you bleed;

Make me shiver in a pool

Of forbidden and misplaced shame.

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I weep and I struggle,

I forget my power.

But I want to hold onto you,

Just a little but longer.

Never Alone

Little girl are you feeling blue?

Feel upset, like you can’t make it through?

As if you can’t see the rainbow that stretches

Across a clear sky after the rain comes down?

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I want you to know,

You’re not alone,

You’re never alone my friend,

I’ll be here for you,

Whether you want me to;

You’re never alone.

Teenage invisible freak,

Are you feeling like you’ll never be seen?

As if all there is to life is prom queens

And maybe you should be a wannabe?

Chorus

Welcome to the real world,

You’re out on your own and you feel so cold

As if you won’t be able to face reality

As it bares down like a heavy weight?

Chorus

No, you’re never alone.